For Gray & the Grey Children.. We are now facing the (universally speaking) inevitable Changes with the loss of flexibility and ability to maintain and sustain the betterness of humanity. For months (for others even years), it has been hard to ground and center in our selves and around us. It has been almost impossible somehow to focus inwards through meditations, and outwards towards society/family.. In all of this 'unfocusedness', mayhem has been created unconsciously, faiths have been tested. We have questioned ourselves, and others have questioned us. And we still do it. Through it, we look at where our base is in the chaos we're experiencing, and try every day to come closer to our core. But as we fight to understand how we feel and how we think, things long forgotten come back. In other words, Past is catching us in the Moment..   WE acknowledge what no longer serves us, and then let it go. It seems to be people, memories, and things. Even habits, traditions and feelings go along here. We fight to create a minimum circle around us - to become less dependant upon other people, and possessions. Through that, we create a wholeness within ourselves. To let go of behaviors that we are taught by parents, and find our own measurements of values and morals. In that very breath, we fight to become a wholeness with others that are of the same, to weave the patterns of our lives towards the same goal. Many of us know where we're headed, and we know what is asked of us, to come further. Others have a clue, and walk the same area. We know, all people will not "wake up" and the frustration can catch us in the most untiming events. But we realize, that we cannot help everybody. We can't wake people up, even though we would love to and have the best of intentions to do so. We realize that we have to come pass the understanding of this, and let go of the selfish sorrow we create, so we can easier walk the path. People have to wake themselves up, sometimes with a helping hand, most times on their own. It is all a matter of strength, and there need to be a constant reminder to ourselves of finding this strength.   We understand that our life force, our consciousness, our equanimity, and our own value to the world are all the same thing. We understand that the transformation in the world, the re-generation, will force us to climb the evolution ladder. Whether we feel ready or not. We, in ourselves, choose whether to "touch the top" or not. Survive or not. Grow or not. Wake up, or not. So it all somehow leave me with the questions whether we can throw off any cultural conditioning that keeps us from owning our original, pure nature, or not? Can we step into the full light of truth so that our core motives and our missions are revealed? Can we be THAT honest? Let us see.. "The first level, to me, is based on Awareness: We know the goals because we have Awoken to some parts of a Truth that we seek. We wake up, and by this, we are split from others who cannot understand the realizations, the revelations, and the Visions that drive us. We become "different" and we become "weird" in the eyes of those who are Blind. We strive to Become what we want to Be, to learn more. From the huge mass of mankind, this level will split the mass in two.. Aware and Unaware..”   And I believe this. It is not at all dependant upon religion, money, or sex. This dichotomy happens when we realize; something triggers us to see beyond the limitations. It is overwhelming when we see this the first time, because suddenly we see that what we hold as important, doesn't matter at all, and what we have done throughout the years, may have been a waste of time. We find ways to go about that is not taught by our parents. Inside, a feeling/intuition is expanding, and increasing. Where we first felt a Frustration of being, we come to see the Need to change. When becoming more aware, where there was a Need to Change, there is now a Will to Change. We become aware of who we are, where we want to go, what we want to do. We see fragments of something else unexplainable, but it feels right. We can't explain it, but we feel it. We can't show others, but we see it still.   We become Seeing, and others remain Blind. We Change, Others get Stuck. We Grow, Others remain Unchanged. We start to Walk, Others are left behind. We feel like outsiders on this step, until we understand that the emptiness is merely a selfish sadness. When that frustration is observed and left behind, we will love the time alone because we know we need the time to contemplate.   ”People feel attracted to aware people. "There is something about her/him, but I can't put my finger on it".. They may not like the fact that we don't follow the herd, they may even shake their heads and not understand. But they still need us, want us, and are dependant upon "that something" that aware people possess. Since everything we achieve is a reflection of our character and personality, this level helps us form the foundation of our expanding worth, attracting more, until we accumulate all the fulfillment we could ever dream of. When we learn to use our magnetism to help achieve our purest goals, we are divided from the mass to climb the ladder...”   We learn to use our magnetism. To put the energies in the right place. We see what effect our actions have, and what reactions they are getting. We see how small amounts of misplaced energy can destroy years of building up. So we become mindful of our responses, and we find ways to increase our energy levels inside. We understand the patterns and the energy exchange. We see that energy used in anger will be over in no time and spewed in all directions, and therefore leave us empty.   Focused energy, however, when angry can "bring back the dead".. Focused energy in any emotion, will increase that emotion and the projection the emotion has on its surroundings. We see that love given will come back just as sweet.. Filling and refilling.   If energy is wasted, we are then frustrated. Experiencing all of these different things to become aware of this, we can then always refill our resources by meditation. Always save our energy, never waste our time, always help others.. We see the importance our beings contain. How we think, what we do, how we act and react. We understand that our work inside is our own, but that the outside will be done with others. And the training of balance starts, and the walk towards global consciousness begins.   ”...while others gaze upon the heaven and ask for a miracle that never will come. We are all Miracles; unexplained.. It is born Inside of us, through us, by us and with us.. If you knew this, you then wouldn't throw away your portion of Miracles that is rooted in you. Christians say God created us in his own image. Then we are of no less worth than him..”   The power we possess is so hard to get a grasp of at times. Seeing this the first time was overwhelming. I do remember it, and seeing the sensations when others in my surroundings didn't, wasn't a feeling of being weird - it was a feeling of being home and at the right place in every moment. "Weird" didn't happen until others values and morals came about and was placed on me. I saw before I started the social entertainment of school and society. Others, that find and see this when being in school or later, have a hard time getting passed the fact that all needs to be destroyed - taken apart - and then put back again with the new understanding. All the Pieces Fit, however. Most times, in their own time. I revolted early, and threaded my own path. That isn't easy to do either, because we headbang our way ahead. With time we realize that the strife in itself, the struggle we feel, makes it worse. I wouldn't trade my "struggles" for anything in the world. I wish, however, that I had the ability to Let Go earlier than it happened. I got entangled in Good, and forgot the other side, the shadow, and the balance. With the help from one of the most awesome persons I have ever been able to meet, I got clues to realize balance. I chose thereafter, without the knowledge of my dear Gray, to become Grey.. And without him, I wonder if I would ever have seen how 'all the pieces fit' at the right time. He gave me life, in a very profound, and everlasting way, opposite of me as he was. Although we once had plans of opening the doors between the gray and the light/dark, that time has yet to come. I still believe though, that whenever that time is needed, he still has my trust, and I have his. LightBringer never comes from the Light, it comes from the Dark.. I know this now..   To find the understanding of following incidents is good, and realize thereafter, the depth of the situations I am speaking: Understanding that "Home" doesn't mean "House", but where you reside Inside. To be rich doesn't mean "Awake to the possessions we serve ourselves with", but the "riches we hold inside". To be "successful" doesn't mean "having the best job", but instead "Doing the best job".   In the Outer World, signs of these Changes are already emerging. The discussions on whether we can change the physical set energy masses (physical bodies), with liquid/floating energy (mental/emotional intents) are in their full speed. What comes out of that as proof, is just to wait for. I'm one of the ones trying, pushing limits, advancing in my understanding.   Are you?   I may be on Level 4 but feel like I'm on Level 1 - or the other way around. In my growth, I may even be jumping between the levels, but have hard time putting them into focus. Taking step 3 before step 2 will not benefit me. A certain understanding needs to be reached for certain information, in order to understand the patterns and the way things work. This only shows the understanding we need to find where we are in this place, right Now. To be Clear in Mind means that we know the next step - what we need to achieve and accomplish to get ready in ourselves. That we understand the consequences (results) of the actions (thought/action/non-action) that we choose to involve (or not involve) ourselves in.   One awake and aware step at the time..   You thought you only Dreamt? Think again..

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